The best blog to check every day is written by a person a lot smarter than yourself, who collects facts and synthesizes them a little quicker than you, who is also humble and barely mentions how adroit she is at the things she chooses to do. She is interested in subjects adjacent to areas you’ve always been interested in being interested in, and she keeps the poetry to a minimum.
She has a strong narrative voice. She avoids cliches and formulaic thought patterns. She isn’t trying to impress you because she is living her authentic life and documenting the evolution of her mind. She has at least one dietary restriction and a tattoo of a young Joan Didion.
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I’ve decided to go to graduate school, to lose 120 lbs, and to write about it as a way of scaffolding the experience. The work I’ve been doing as a home health aide is emotionally rewarding but I do not intend to do it forever. I made the decision a month ago and have since rested on the laurels of having made a decision. No progress toward implementation.
I’m turning 35 at the start of next year and when I do I want to be very good at a daily routine, time management, living, laughing, loving. That will entail a level of self-introspection I am unaccustomed to. I will need to make plans and follow them, even when I’d rather be scrolling through my phone or reading fiction. A few years of sustained effort could change the trajectory of my career, but the waiting has to stop and some day has to be now.
W♥YCG 